time to get into gear

sitting in my room. at a "loss" as to what to do. it's already week 4 of school. i've got work piling up and I don't know where to start. an assignment due tmr. project/presentation on thursday which consists of 2 summaries of research papers, 15 ppt slides and a written summary of our presentation. which for my case is about self confidence. got tons of reading, which i have yet to touch. at least 1 reading for each unit each lesson. 2 upcoming exams next thurs. how how how??

and all i'm doing here is sitting and complaining.

on a side note, my weekend was awesome. went outlet shopping on saturday. bought loads of stuff.. got lost on the way back. missed our exit by 53 miles. which is about 85km. so had to turn back.... that is 170km of useless driving, besides the fact that we were having a good time singing and talking nonsense in the car. and cuz we had the car on sunday too, we went to a small amusement park just 30mins drive away. 12.95 for good spinning fun and yummy korean food to end the day.

i also decided to take this course that has 4 field trips which includes a sailing and a canoeing trip http://www.outreach.psu.edu/adventure-lit/chesapeake/ oh and sarah... it's an english course. HAHA. more readings and writing.

i'm still recovering from the fun. time to start studying soooon.

caving

okok.. time to go back in time. let's rewind to wed, 1st September. I went caving! we went to this place called tytoona. it was amazing and an experience never to forget.

just before that, shawna and I were walking around downtown, shopping for penn state shirts for saturday's game and we got kinda lost. or rather i got us lost cuz i was convinced that left was the right way to go. i guess next time, right is always right. anyways. she told me they were going caving that evening and i was like why never ask me?! and she said she sent me the email which i didn't receive of course. so in less than 30mins, we rushed back so that i could change and grab some stuff and headed off to the meeting point.

on the drive there which took about 30mins plus, i found out that we were going to get all dirty and wet. and i was like -_-" didn't bring an extra change of clothes. dot dot dot. but anyways. there's no stopping me to getting into some adventure. hehe. once we got there, we grabbed ourselves some helmets and we were all ready to go!

as we stepped into the cave, geez it was cold. and dark. but it got "better"...soon enough we found ourselves trudging in water knee deep and bent over so that we would not hit the "ceiling" and just making noises to see if there was an echo. we walked till the end of the cave that wasn't really the end, just that you'd need to scuba dive 20/30 feet down to continue exploring. at this end, we did wad i call the silent black out. we switched off our headlights and just kept really silent. it was so dark that you couldn't see your hand even if you put it right in front of your face. it made me feel like i was all alone in that place, hearing only the sound of moving water and nothing else. it was like escapism from reality only that there was a certain strange beauty to that silence and darkness that i cannot explain in words.

after a few minutes, we switched our lights back on and explored the cave. we found crayfish in the water, frogs and also salamanders. i was so fascinated by the life we found in the cave. i held them in my hands and made some special memories in this big black cave. hahas. i also saw something that caught my attention. it was this flower like thing, we i assume is some type of fungus or parasite cuz it was growing on this black dead log. it was white, and skinny and about the length of my finger. it had the stalk of a beansprout and petals at the end. a very pretty sight.

after exploring we went to another part of the cave where it was so tight that we had to get on our bellies and crawl through the tunnel. and at the end of the tunnel there was a tiny space for like 3 ppl to stand up, all squished up, facing each other and wishing to get out as soon as possible. hahas. the ground was rocky and i got some cuts. but ohman. wad an experience. just outside this tunnel, all around was just clay. and we started making clay man. or started making balls of clay and threw at each other. it was great fun. there was a slopish part too, where we all took turns to slide down the natural clay slide. hahas. so fun!



all in all, though the cave was a lil chilly, and the water was freezing cold and we got all clayish and dirty. it's something i would not mind doing again! hope there are more to come =))

omggg.. feeling the love.

i dont' quite know where to start, since it has been like 2 weeks since my last post? and A LOT has happened since then. maybe i should just tell you the most recent thing that happened and leave the rest for later...

this morning, before church, i was complaining that I feel that God's not talking to me and that he's so far far away. i know i've been quite cynical over the past few months, and i know this has been a factor in the dryness i feel. my hardened heart is hard. i've been trying to think that it's not, but i guess there is no denying since the symptoms show.

i went to state college assembly of God today. it's my second time there, and i really like it a lot. firstly cuz I can feel God there. which is wow to me. secondly, there are many flags on the ceiling of the main sanctuary, and i think it's a missions church. as i look around me, i see many ppl from very diverse backgrounds. i also heard that the student body alone, in this church has like 22 nations represented. so cool right!! =) a lot of them from countries unknown to me. =X and thirdly, it's a very very welcoming place with very nice people. and OH! their mission statement is "Love God. Love people. Love life!" HAHA!!! i miss home. but this is something that i hold on to personally as well, as my own life mission. =)

today's sermon was on the River of God. a timely word for me and because God kept nudging and i knew i had to do business with God, i went up to the altar today. "Spirit of God pour out", a line in a song they were singing became my heart's cry and God just touched me there and then. i was refreshed by the living water of God, and i felt soo goood. though so far away from home and all alone, i felt so close to God. in that instant, it felt like all my worries were washed away, and i was made new.

after getting up and walking back to my seat, an african girl i believe, approached me and said she felt led to pray for me. and asked for my full name and email address. i felt sooo loved and accepted!! omggg! just a simple gesture like this made me feel so overwhelmed by her love. (my heart is like jumping up and down non stop now...)

today has been God planned, God destined, God given.

So this is the family of God. I love my family!