God's love revealed
i know, i know i'm a irresponsible blogger. hahas. but i really have no mood to blog. a lot of things have happened/are happening, but there is just no motivation to write anything.
2010 was a goooood year but not an easy year.. however i believe things have changed inside of me. i thank God for all the lessons He's taught me. for all the sifting and pruning. through the relationships and friedships i had, i saw a part of me that i've never seen before. it wasn't the most pleasant and at times when i felt so disappointed, i knew that my Creator was holding me in His hands. After the first half of the year, i had almost hit rock bottom, drained, and delusional. i struggled believing in the love my friends had for me, and i questioned their intentions of loving me. i tried to stand strong, tried to put on a front that everything was alright, but subconciously i had drawn away from people.
i went to America, not totally excited and not hoping for much. instead i saw it as an opportunity to run away. to run away from reality, and to run away from friends. i wanted to be "alone", to be by myself, to be myself. i went there also thinking that God will teach me how to trust Him even through the loneliness, but God having a better plan, provided soooo soooo sooooo many friends, who supported me throughout my time in America. He showered His love upon me through these friends, and I cannot deny that He loves me, and knows my inmost needs. over those few months, he slowly peeled away the hardenered layers of my heart that i've built towards ppl. He restored my trust in ppl. He healed me of my disappointments and hurts. He showed me that there was still hope in the church (not that there isn't, but i FELT there wasn't..) He showed me that the church (body of believers) still loves, and that the church is still the hope/salt/light of the world.
there's so much more, but through 2010, God never failed to love me through the good times and the bad and I don't take that for granted.
2010 was a goooood year but not an easy year.. however i believe things have changed inside of me. i thank God for all the lessons He's taught me. for all the sifting and pruning. through the relationships and friedships i had, i saw a part of me that i've never seen before. it wasn't the most pleasant and at times when i felt so disappointed, i knew that my Creator was holding me in His hands. After the first half of the year, i had almost hit rock bottom, drained, and delusional. i struggled believing in the love my friends had for me, and i questioned their intentions of loving me. i tried to stand strong, tried to put on a front that everything was alright, but subconciously i had drawn away from people.
i went to America, not totally excited and not hoping for much. instead i saw it as an opportunity to run away. to run away from reality, and to run away from friends. i wanted to be "alone", to be by myself, to be myself. i went there also thinking that God will teach me how to trust Him even through the loneliness, but God having a better plan, provided soooo soooo sooooo many friends, who supported me throughout my time in America. He showered His love upon me through these friends, and I cannot deny that He loves me, and knows my inmost needs. over those few months, he slowly peeled away the hardenered layers of my heart that i've built towards ppl. He restored my trust in ppl. He healed me of my disappointments and hurts. He showed me that there was still hope in the church (not that there isn't, but i FELT there wasn't..) He showed me that the church (body of believers) still loves, and that the church is still the hope/salt/light of the world.
there's so much more, but through 2010, God never failed to love me through the good times and the bad and I don't take that for granted.
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