hold my heart with tlc

"i'll hold your heart with tlc"

these words assured me of the solid and deep love my bestie has for me. not that i doubted it, but it cemented it. i've been blessed with many good friends, but this special friend of mine, i cannot stop thanking God for. i never grow tired of talking bout her, thinking bout the good times we had and gonna have.

this is what carissa is to me:
who could stand me, yihui, always so strongheaded, always wanting her way...only car can, giving in not because she's forced to, but wants to. (she said she doesn't even feel like she's giving in)
when i'm impatient, she's patient
when i'm unloving, she loves all the more
when i forget and "ignore" her, she doesn't demand anything, yet waits with grace
she expects nothing from me but me

when i'm hurting, she embraces me, no matter how far apart we are physically
when i'm happy, she rejoices along
whenever i'm in need, she is THERE

i know that i am accepted and loved just for who i am. i know i am never judged, never condemned even when i share the darkest sides of me. i know that no matter what, my heart is in safe hands. maybe that's what trust is all about. giving our hearts wholly to someone, and being assured that it will be protected, taken care of, loved and nourished.

dearest bestie, you've given me a clearer picture of what it'll be like when i trust my Father in heaven. He is my Father, He will take care of me right? why do i find it so hard to trust sometimes? if i can trust my bestie, i can trust my daddy God.

i am loved, no matter how dirty and broken i am.
"YOU hold my heart with tlc"